Jan 20th
Psalm 139: 1-6, 13-18
O Lord, you have examined my heart
and know everything about me.
2 You know when I sit down or stand up.
You know my thoughts even when I’m far away.
3 You see me when I travel
and when I rest at home.
You know everything I do.
4 You know what I am going to say
even before I say it, Lord.
5 You go before me and follow me.
You place your hand of blessing on my head.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too great for me to understand!13 You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body
and knit me together in my mother’s womb.
14 Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!
Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.
15 You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,
as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
16 You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out
before a single day had passed.17 How precious are your thoughts about me,[a] O God.
They cannot be numbered!
18 I can’t even count them;
they outnumber the grains of sand!
And when I wake up,
you are still with me!
I got a funny and sad story to share. It reminded me of today’s scripture where God says he knitted us in our mother’s womb.
Also, thank God for Mom’s right? Dads too, but moms carried us and sacrificed their bodies in ways men cannot.
My mom told me recently that when I told her I wanted to be a Pastor she took a shower and cried. She wanted me to be an engineer. She also told me a story a while ago about how when she was pregnant with me my dad told her to abort me, she didn’t want to, and they kept fighting back and forth. She told me in desperation she went to the local catholic church, and prayed in front of one of those statues of Mary and Jesus. In that prayer she told God to “protect me, keep me, and take care of me.” So like….why the heck is she surprised that I became a Pastor. Right?
So when I read today’s scripture I think that God must have wanted this from me since I was in the womb. So “don’t mess it up,” I say to myself. What does it mean to you that God knows you in and out? That God may ultimately know how it all ends? That God has an active role in shaping your life? How is God trying to mold you? Who is God trying to mold you into?
Whoever that person it, God has been trying to mold that person since you were in the womb. Are you running away from it? Are you running towards this person? I sure hope you are.
Love God. Love neighbor. Love self.